What I know now, I wish I knew then

My dearest Bunnie..

There are so many things I’d like to share with you, and I used to think it’d be amazing if I could go back in time and prevent you from doing certain things down the road, but today I can say that I’m glad I never did so (time machines aren’t cheap). But you are the past, and I am the present, and I’m sure that Future-Bunnie has many things she’d maybe like to tell me, but I doubt she can afford the trip in time. And hopefully she’s smarter than that.

Of all the things I could say, all I can say is that...

Life is life. It’s brutal and sometimes, it hurts.

But there is nothing better than it and I wouldn’t change a thing.

I am grateful with every particle of my being for all my life; for the good, the bad and the awful.

Without these things you would never have become the Bunnie you are today, and even though you’re far from being a perfectly balanced person living in blissful harmony, despite the lack of unicorns and rainbows in this life, every second of it is a gift.

Life is so many possibilities. And even though you only live once, living your life to the fullest is the best you can do. For someone, living their life to the fullest can mean taking risks; the physical kind. Bungee jumping, skydiving, you name it, they’ve done it. It’s tangible, it’s real. But I don’t think that it’s the only way to live. Life is made of tangible things, but it is intangible itself.

You smell, breathe, touch life. But you also feel it. Life is also emotions. Life can be dreams; nightdreams or daydreams. Plans and ideas, expanding to the limits of your imagination. Feeling your limits, not being able to grasp concepts like eternity or understanding the meaning behind all things.

Life is a mystery.

Life works in mysterious ways actually, sometimes you end up getting it, most of the time you won’t.

Life has a sense of humour, for sure. Life must have a sense of humour with all the semi-awkward situations it leaves for us to enjoy. (I can’t guarantee you’ll enjoy them right away, but after some time passes, you’ll have tons of hilarious stories to tell.) Life is laughter. The more you laugh, the more you live.

Life can be scary for a little bunny like you though. But in the end, life works out.

You just have to breathe, let go and live.

Just go with the flow, be a little fish in the stream and follow your own rhythm. Never let anyone tell you what’s right or wrong; you’ve got a conscience, just listen to it. Going with the flow is not about following crowds and the main stream, it’s about following your stream.

Of course, it’s not that simple, there will be times where you’ll feel lost in dark, murky waters. Sometimes it’ll be night time, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. It’s in the night time that you can see the stars. See, life is what you make of it. It’s yours, and with your little fish fins you can always swim away, take some time off and swim towards clear waters.

But no matter what happens remember, you’re never really alone. There are plenty of fish in the sea, some are big other small, but deep inside they’re just like you. Some will try to bring you down, others will try to take you with them on crazy adventures, and it’s alright to make mistakes. The sea is so vast and you so little, how could you know better?

The important thing though, is to learn from your mistakes. Mistakes; they’re rather funny. They’ll keep on coming back to you until you GET IT and learn the lesson. And if you don’t, don’t worry they’ll come back under various forms. Beware of the algae. When it’s too good to be true, it often means it is.

However, don’t ever lock your heart. You can lock your house, I even would recommend you do so (encounters with robbers are not fun), but never ever lock your heart. You never know what the strangers you encounter can end up meaning to you.

You’ll meet a Bunny, and he’ll be the loveliest thing ever, better than any song or any food. Sometimes he’ll do silly things, but he’ll be a good Bunny. Just wait and see.

Many good things shall happen, but bad things happen too. Thing is, you must never be scared.

Believe, ask and be grateful. Be kind to others, even if they’re not always kind to you.

And cut ties with other fishes if you must. They’re not always the best fishies you can have around you, and it’s only for the best.

Be happy of what you have, but don’t stop doing things. Always keep going, you can’t stop just like that in water.

You’ll meet many fishies in that sea, and some will teach you important lessons. One day you shall meet a stranger who will know better than most you’ve ever met, and who’ll tell you;

“If you want to get to somewhere, just keep moving your feet.”

It’ll make you laugh and you’ll think he’s nuts at first, but sweet Bunnie, if only you knew how right he is...

No matter what happens, regardless of who you love or who you lose, just keep walkin’

And like Dolly Parton once said, “If you don’t like the road you’re walkin’ start paving another one.”

Dear Bunnie, this life is yours. Embrace it, accept it, just like you should accept yourself and others and you’ll be happy. Don’t ever be bitter and laugh a lot.

It feels good.

Love,

Bunnie from the present